I've already told James twice this week that I'm ready to move back...and of course he "reminds" me that it was MY idea to move (which is totally false...he got the job, so we moved!) Not that I wasn't ever excited to move here...not really grasping how far away I would be from my family, and how much it would effect me being that far away....I WAS excited for a new adventure!
Eventually, I kick myself to REMIND myself of all the WONDERFUL things that have happened to us since we have been in Texas! Seriously...we have been so blessed and all I can do is feel sad! Totally not cool. I've got that "Grass is Always Greener" syndrome...aptly named by my mom.
In honor of this 2 year mark....I thought I'd share some pictures!
This is what I looked like...8 months pregnant! And Bella...just before her 2nd birthday. I've been organizing my pictures to get them ready to scrap...and this cute little face just makes me smile!
We left behind one awesome Gramma and one proud Grampa! Before we left, we got to spend a week in Cedar City hanging out with them! Good memories :).
Also, had to say goodbye to an awesome best friend! UGH...thanks for listening to me whine, Krista-girl. I love ya!
I guess one thing that makes my heart ache is all the stuff I am missing being so far away! I know with extended family it ends up that we grow up...we live in different cities, we see each other on holidays here and there....but being the oldest I am seriously upset that I have to miss band concerts, hikes in the canyon, campouts, first day of kindergarten for my little bro!!
I saw this picture of my family hiking on Labor Day and wished SO bad that I could have been there....
And I hate missing things like football games and watching my sisters play in the band...and watching my Emmalee become a DRUM MAJOR, like some of her sisters before her! What an exciting opportunity for her....I LOVE YOU EM...I wish I could BE there to support her!!
(Thats her...front row...holding the big stick....)
Haha...yeah, could I BE any more depressing?! I put faith on that we will be together again one of these days....back to Sunday night dinners and sitting together at the parade! I just love that kinda green so much!! :)
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Ugg! I am so sorry that you have been feeeling sad! I totaly know what you mean about feeling ALL ALONE sometimes! I moved here too, when I was all preggers with Brady and a little toddler in my arms, with no friends or family to support me! It is so hard to be from family and nothing I can say really makes it easier, but what I tell myself, is that it makes me appreciate them more! I NEVER thought I would live this far from my family and my siblings, and my other friends! But, I will say I am glad you are here, b/c I am so greatful for the friendship that we have, it makes those alone times much easier when you have friends to help you through!
When Gareth and I got engaged, I was 19 and thought FANTASTIC!--I am going to move to Las Vegas. He just got home from his mission in Chicago, so I didnt feel like I could tell him to come back Illinois, that would be selfish. I thought what a GREAT ADVENTURE. Packed my room/my life essentially into my little 2-door Saturn sports car. Within 2 weeks of getting engaged, my Mom and I drove across country to move me to Las Vegas. It was a few months before reality set in, realizing...CRAP, none of my family is here. My little sis was 15 at the time and I remember feeling sad missing out on her getting her drivers license/homecomings/prom etc. It did get a little depressing ever so often.
But if this helps...Someone told me once, that if you ever feel depressed, write down on a piece of paper ALL OF YOUR BLESSINGS, that will cure you from anything. Give it a shot, it's worth a try.
Even now living back in Illinois, there are so many things we miss about Las Vegas and some of the things we did with Gareth's family. Unfortunately you can't have it all. Why is that? But I am a huge member of the "grass is always greener club."
Hope you feel better soon...
I am hearing you all to well! Why? because this entire Texas move w/ kev is a huge decision! My biggest fear is the crime in Dallas and the cultural shock for my kids! also pulling my kids away from another set of grandparents. Of all the good Kev may say about Texas and mainly the cost of living being cheap and him making more money... I ask myself at what cost? being lonely and miserable and missing my two best friends my sis and mom! Anyhow, I feel like reading your blog answered more of my questions for our move there... we are continually praying and asking the Lord to guide us! I hope I didn't make you feel worse, but I know how important it is to be near family! plus my little sis is prego now! Anyhow, Chin up because this is just a glimpse of your life you wont' be there forever! Sorry for the novel. Jenn
I am sorry you are blue! I live close to my family, but my two youngest brothers recently moved to Pittsburg and North Dakota and I miss them so much...and their darling little babies! So I know how your family must miss you!
I love you Sarah! I am SO sorry that you've been so sad this last week! I can remember long ago feeling that same way when we were first married and moving so far away. I distinctly remember sitting in front of a fan (no a/c) during a hot summer day in Columbia, Missouri, just crying on the phone to my mom, and DRIPPING wet... literally! It was so humid, I missed my family... I mean I loved married life, and my sweet husband (no kids yet)... but it is very hard to be so far away. What helped me was knowing that the most important thing in life is my OWN family unit... which at the time was John & I... and that we would be together forever, along with our extended family. Easy concept, hard to live though. You have been blessed with SUCH a SWEET and wonderful family! I am SO proud of you! And YESSSS we would love to have you guys here enjoying all the fun stuff with us. You are always in our thoughts and prayers - so in a way you are with us always.
SO, I'll continue to look for GOOD accounting jobs here in Cedar, or even in St. George, okay?
Love you TONS!!!
Ahhh, don't be sad! I forget how lucky I am to be near all of my family. I'm sorry you are feeling blue, let me know if you need anything. I love ya.
You seriously just made me cry!!! I can't believe it's been two years since my best friend moved away!! It's crazy how much our girls have grown looking at those sweet little angel faces in those pics. I have a really hard time making friends because I compare them all to you and it just doesn't compare. I feel like I have to work really hard for those friendships and with us, it was just so easy. It still is easy!! I'm so thankful that we still talk all the time because I don't know what I would do without you!! I'm so sorry that you have the blahs and I hope our talk made you feel a little better. Please know that I am always around to talk if you need to. Love you lots and sending hugs your way;)
As I was reading your post,I totally thought I could have wirtten the same thing. I have been in your shoes for 12 years! When Scott & I got amrried and moved to MO, I wasso far from my family. I missed graduations and dances, and even the marriages and births of my nephews. I get it, and totally understnad how you feel! Especially with the mom/sisters thing. That bond is so strong and it stinks feeling like you have missed out on monumentous occassions. But it has worked out...now I am 5 hours away from my parents, and 8 from 2 of my 3 sisters! Take care..and just know that they miss you being there too. Love ya
Awww Sarah – I’m sorry you’ve been sad. If it makes you feel any better, I’m glad you moved to TX!!! (I’d be more glad if you moved closer to me – but still – glad nonetheless.) :-)
I know it must be so hard to be away from family. You are a very sweet person and I am glad Kelli introduced us! Being blue is no fun, cheer up punkin!
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